Another occasion calls for social drinking
As the night draws to an end I’m thinking,
I envy the freeness of the happy people
I scream a silent plea to land on deaf ears.
They have no idea of my inevitable fate
The feeling of horrified fear builds in my gut,
As the beer fades his attitude begins to change.
He’s angry at someone but it’s me who gets the glares
His jaw is clenched his knuckles are crunched,
Eyes dark as he gives me the blackest of stares.
We must leave now before he gets angrier
If a fight breaks out and he gets hurt,
It would be my fault and things much worse.
At home I hurry to hide in the safety of my bed
The covers pulled tight right around my head,
I pray that they shelter me and my swollen belly
From anything that may explode around us tonight.
To the soothing sound of tv through the ceiling,
I drift away as this has a great meaning
It means he’s in there at this hour likely sleeping.
I wake in mid air pulled tight by my hair
I feel a breeze move around me moments before
My head slams against a wall, my body falls.
As I crumple my ordeal is far from over
It’s just the start to bruise my body my broken heart.
It wasn’t like this before, especially at the start!
His fist is hard, with rings that show his worth
They make his blows much more traumatising.
I’d hoped with the baby he’d become more law-abiding
But the lumps and oozing blood soaking my head and face,
Show me he can’t from the law he’ll always be hiding.
My eyes now swollen shut block my sight
I can’t see I miss the blow that puts out my lights
He sees me and panics, it’s too much, this time it was manic!
I can hear outside my body, he finally speaks.
“What did you make me do? It’s okay Baby I’ll get you help
Ambulance..there’s been an accident, my wife she’s pregnant!
She’s knocked out, yes I think she’s breathing.
She fell down some stairs.